Saturday, May 24, 2008
recently really damn stress up wif projects... hav been tinking hard n putting lots of effort juz to try to make e presentation on next fri to run well... nd to count on my own knowledge badly juz to create everyting n to make it to e result tat i wan... it's nt tat i dun wan to ask for hlp... but juz to save e trouble frm having dispute abt e fairness of e wk done, i juz hav to do it all by myself... last time hav sm quarrel n arguements abt e sharing of wk... one of them feel tat it is unfair to her as she is doing e whole proj all by herself... claiming tat e rest of us nv contribute... n of course tat was nt e case... we did contribute but it juz tat she do e wk herself n dun wan to use our wk... end up showing us those attitudes... n of course i'm damn pissed... but aft tat it's all over... we tell her tat we will do mre wk for e rest of e proj... although she say nvm but i feel tat juz do mre lo since she feel tat we nv do anyting... although it really make me suffers but wat else cn i do lea? i oso wan to b fair to everyone rite? of course i dunno e rest of them will hav e same tinking as me... but juz to save sm trouble, i'll juz do my part bah...
i oso hav other tings to bother me except proj... haiz... i'm tinking of gg to wk to earn money... coz i really broke le =x but i'm really tinking hard shd i go anot... although my mum encourage me to go, i still nd to tink abt other tings rite? abt my sch wk, my driving license n oso my dad... haiz... i juz dunno wat to do cn... i wan to go wk juz to earn money so tat i cn hav a better standard of living... i of course cn try to cope wif my studies n mayb make possible arrangement for my driving license... but wat abt my dad? everytime i went to wk, he nv fail to object n quarrel wif me... i really dun wan tat to happen agn cn? he will oso keep bugging me everyday either i came back frm wk or when i came back frm sch... smtimes i'm so tired n juz wan to get sm rest... but he expect me to talk to him every min... it's so impossible cn... haiz... n smtimes becoz of those stress tat i get frm sch wk, my temper juz cnt b tat gd... so if i went to wk, i came back i still nd to hide my stress n try to entertain him whenever he talk to me... it's juz so tiring lo... i hav alr try tis alot of time le... shd i go for it agn? but i scared becoz i went to wk, he will quarrel wif my mum n scold her for encouraging me to wk... argh... it's juz so irritating lo... really dunno wat to do... but smtimes its nt juz tat e ting i wan he cn giv me rite? i nd to b independent one day de rite? so y dun he tink for me n let me go suffer e pain outside? i shd go n earn my own money le... i cnt b lyk pri sch kid keep asking dad or mum to buy me tis or tat rite? n smmre i shd strive hard to earn money myself to buy e tings tat i wan isn't it? except pocket money, i cnt b keep asking them to giv me extra money rite? i juz dun get it... really dun get it... my dad had been telling me how well he treated me n my bros... den he say tat other parent wun b as gd as him... but tis really make me tink vry long... how he noe how other ppl treat their child?? LOL... n of course sm of my fren will get wat they wan once they open their mouth... n i noe for me, it wun even happen... den wats e pt frm stopping me to go earn extra money for myself whereas he wun giv me those tings i wan? smtimes tings really meant to let go... hold on to it wun do any gd... isn't it? haiz... so aft saying so long i still nd to tink carefully abt it... c how tings goes bah... lol...
Labels: i juz dun get it wat sm ppl r tinking smtimes...
This is how all things worked...
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