My Reflection shows it all

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

smtimes i really wondering y is it so weird n unfair at times... sm ppl cn juz take tings for granted n as easily as nt much effort spend, while sm got to wk double hard n till end of e day thr might nt b any gd result in return... for me, i confirm is those type tat put in double effort n end up didn't get a ting back... hav been trying hard to b true to my feelings n to watever tings i do... trying hard to put myself in other ppl's shoe n tink for them... trying to giv in to ppl n make myself rather miserable at times... trying to solve everyting n to even put alot of stress on myself... trying to hlp e ppl ard me n hav created for myself sm probs which nobody will b thr to hlp me out... i dare nt say tat i'm sacrificing for ppl but i cn confirm i've make myself really miserable... it seems tat my hardwk n true feelings r being treated for nth... nobody is thr to really appreciate for wat i've done for them... of course i nt expecting ppl come to thank me... but at least sm appreciate will alr make me happy le... eventhough e sacrifice smtimes is juz nt as simple as they tink... but i'm contented if at least a person noe for my hardwk done...

it's really weird... i treat my frens truely but i juz cnt figure it out y smtimes i feel tat i'm juz an extra or even a stupid idiot down thr contributing whr nobody even cares for my existance... it's really torturing... smtimes when i found out tings tat is nt rite, trying hard to persuade a fren who is gg to fall inside e trap, but end up wat i got is only hurt for myself... having alot of probs hlping e fren out n smtimes it's really disheartening... coz lyk wat ppl say 旁观者清当局者迷... smtimes i cn c wat e other wans to do but e person who's gg to b e victim might nt noe... worse is i told him/her n explained clearly but he/she does nt even agree or care abt wat i say... seeing e person walking mre n mre closer to e trap tat is laid, i feel mre n mre worried... but when he/she fall inside e trap n got himself/herself hurt, i cnt even do anyting but juz beside consoling...

sm ppl will juz make use of wat he/she hav to get wat he/she wans... mayb once in a gd relationship wif e person will benefit him/her in e future if he/she wanna carry out his/her motive i guess... smtimes seeing frens being make use of n doesn't even heed my advise, i really dunno wat i cn do anymre... watever it is, when a person treats u gd all e time for a vry long period n doesn't change easily, it means e person truely treat u gd... but when e person cn easily change e attitude towards u, juz b mre careful... a gd fren to u in e past does nt equal to a gd fren nw... he/she might juz wan to get smting frm u smtimes so he/she will treat u better... but aft all u r nt even existed in his/her world... in conclusion, juz b careful, tats wat i cn only say...