Saturday, September 26, 2009
finally back to blogging agn... hav nt been feeling too well tis few days... thr's smting in my mind which i cnt even tell anybody... it meant to b a secret... but it's really killing me... thr's nth i cn do but to keep it to myself... hopefully time cn hlp to heal...
hav made sm decisions... it's hard n seriously i feel e pain... hav been stopping myself frm doing certain tings n tinking abt certain matters... no matter how happy last time it used to b, nw it's alr different... trying hard to make myself staying clear of e matter by laughing although thr's nth to laugh abt, making ppl happy but me myself doesn't really tat happy at all, having mre rest juz to stop my brain frm tinking, follow closely to my routine life etc... mayb it's a form of escaping frm e matter but i could only tink of keeping myself occupied so as thr's no extra time for my mind to run wild...
juz bked a date... it's impt to me... it's gg to b my last... juz hope everyting juz turns out smoothly... i had smhow sick n tired of it... i guess i might nt hav e energy to battle wif it anymre aft tis time... so shall let fate decide... although i couldn't bear to giv up but i hav no choice if it's fated... no matter wat, i'll juz giv my best shot for tis time... at least thr's isn't much regret if e ending doesn't turn out to b gd... but of course i would wish for e best... i tink tats all for today... shall update soon =)
i seriously wash my hands off u... totally hopeless n thr's nth i cn do if u urself dun even wanna tink...
Labels: wish myself all e best for my future life =)
This is how all things worked...
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