Monday, May 31, 2010
time is precious... no matter wat happened i juz wish to cherish every moment... b it happy, angry, sad or disappointment... coz we might nt noe when will we still hav e chance to get those feelings agn... wat will happen in e next min nobody cn predict...
yest is nt a gd day... i cn say mre of a challenging day for me... challenge myself to get to my own limits... start of e day is pleasant but i juz dunno y e ending seems so cruel to me... i got too much tings which i nd to absorb n bear wif it... i really hate being restricted... when will i hav a day of true freedom n peace??
watever i do i will responsible for it... i will nt deny or watsoever... nw den i feel being true is so difficult... revealing my true self is mre of digging a hole n get ready to get myself buried... its vry difficult to put up a big smile infront of everybody when i dun even feel happy... tinking of spreading happiness to ppl ard me but i doubt i'm successful... coz no matter wat i do e ending will nt b e way i wanted it to b... watever i've said is come frm e bottom of my heart... whether ppl believe it or nt i dunno... i dunno y watever tings i do or say sounds so fake to ppl... nw den i noe i'm a hypocrite infront of ppl... probably a backstabber which will say bad tings behind ppl's back... tats e impression tat i gave ppl... i've failed... totally failed to become a simple person... failed to become smone tats truthful... no matter wat i juz hope for no mre further misunderstanding... coz i dun wanna explain further which will b treated as excuses in e end... nt saying or blaming anyone but i juz hope ppl will believe me... coz i dun tell lies juz to get wat i wan n hurt another party... i dun understand y all e misunderstanding got to happen on me... is tat really wat ppl tot of me?? i'm tired... pls dun b so cruel n spare sm tots for me... regarding how tings will b lyk in e future, i dun dare to b optimistic... ...
Labels: being true is so difficult...
This is how all things worked...
11:43 PM
